Tuesday, July 10, 2012

my 'all' right now: a day in the life

i know, i know
having it all.  not having it all.  having ALMOST all of it or MORE than all -- whatever.  everyone has a different idea of what this means, and no one can agree on whether it's possible -- or even a good thing to strive for.

right now, though, i feel like . . . i do.  have some version of MY all, i mean.  i've been working, keeping annabel fed/clothed/happy, and enjoying life when not infected with viruses.  if i had carried a crystal ball 10 years ago and saw today, i would have been overjoyed with how things have worked out so far.

that's not to say it's easy, or that everything [anything!] is perfect.  i already do feel sad sometimes about the things i will miss out on -- both professionally and personally.  but i am just really encouraged about how things are going so far.

on a practical level, here's what it currently looks like . . .
[on a non-clinic / lab day -- things will be different -- and unfortunately less relaxed -- on clinic days!]


5 am:  wake up [either by alarm or by annabel].  if a. is awake around this time, i feed her and put her back to bed.  if not, i pump while eating breakfast and cross my fingers that she's not seconds away from rousing.  if she's still asleep or has gone back to bed, i take advantage of this little window to run [treadmill] or do a dvd [jillian michaels, baby].  weekday workouts are 25 - 35 minutes, max -- on the days that they do happen.

6:30 or 7 am:  a typical annabel wake-up time.  if i'm lucky, i've already showered!  if not, a. gets to hang out in her bjorn seat until i'm clean and ready for work.  if there are a few extra minutes, we hit the mat for some tummy time.  i pick out her outfit [highlight of the day] and get her dressed for day care.

7:15 am:  bottle prep-stravaganza, plus a quick lunch packing.  i realize i could do this the night before, but . . . it just hasn't happened yet.  i set all of the necessary work gear [pump, day care bag with bottles, work bag, etc] near the door.  a. usually watches from her seat.  somehow, this is enough entertainment.

7:30 am:  last feed and diaper change before i head out the door.  i always make sure to top annabel off before dropping her off at day care -- this helps to delay her first bottle which helps to conserve oz of the precious pumped resource.  i would alllllllways rather feed her at the breast than by pump.  always.

8:00 am or thereabouts:  out the door.

8:15 am:  arrive at day care.  perform drop-off duties:  milk in the fridge, fill out daily info sheet, plant wistful kiss on a's forehead.  i put her down on a playmat or boppy, and she usually smiles at me as i leave.  i'm sure she enjoys my company, but there are TOYS!!! at daycare.

8:25 am:  drive to lab.  and usually eat breakfast #2 on the way.

8:50 am:  arrive in lab.  i plan out the day and do various and sundry lab tasks -- these vary a great deal, actually.  some days i'm dealing with mice [not my scene, but i'm used to it]; others i am at the bench [like today when i actually got something to work!  yay!].  i need to start spending more time reading papers and actually figuring out some sort of a mechanism for the physiology seen in our models, but admittedly i've been putting it off in favor of hands-on things.  still getting back into the groove, though.

11:45 am:  scarf down lunch as quickly as possible.

12:00 pm:  pump.  i realize i could eat while pumping, but i have a 30 minute slot to pump [includes set up/clean up] and . . . well, my breasts do not care about efficiency.  they're slow and require hands-on attention, unfortunately.  so i'd rather have all of the time slot to actually pump.

12:30 pm:  back to work.  usually finishing experiments from the AM and analyzing [playing with] data.  this is time i would like to spend on more reading -- both related to my project and in the more clinical realm.  i'm realizing that i have a year [!!!] until i'm in practice and there is so much i want to learn!

3:30 pm:  pump #3. [#2 at work].  this time i usually snack while doing it.  from a yield standpoint, this session is often disappointing.  bah.  if there is one low point in my life right now, it's that i am still baaaaarely keeping up with annabel's intake.  i wish it wasn't a stressor for me, but it honestly still is.  she usually eats 12 oz/day and i pump 12 - 13 oz.  i guess it could be worse, but i'd love to be able to be less of a milk miser.

4:00 pm:  back to work, cleaning up loose ends/answering emails/etc.

4:30 pm - 5:00 pm:  when i'm done with everything, i'm out of there!

5:00 - 5:20 pm:  day care pickup!  i LOOOOVE this moment of the day.  annabel is usually happily playing on the floor or on someone's lap and there's this moment when i see her and she smiles and i am just so happy to pick her up and take her home.  ahhh.

5:15 - 5:35 pm:  breastfeeding time.  i can't say that every session is bliss, but this one is always so nice.  i just crash on the futon in her room and relax while she eats her heart out.  it's lovely.

5:40 or so:  playtime.  sadly, this does get abbreviated if i arrive home on the later side.  but on earlier days [like today!] we hit the mat for some tummy time and lots of toy action.  i can usually get a giggle out of her by picking her up repeatedly and kissing her.  baby laughs are the best.

6:15 pm:  nighttime routine begins*.  i try to be very strict about doing this the same way and at the same time each night.  bath is first and as i mentioned -- a. LOVES it.  and therefore i do too.  this is followed by applying lotion, chaining into bedtime gear, and then another nursing session.  someday i'd like to add a book in there, but usually she's just ready to be done.

by 7:00 pm:  wrapped up and in bed.

7:00 pm:  unloading of the dishwasher from the night before, and packing of all of the day's paraphernalia [bottles and pump parts as far as the eye can seen, basically . . . .].

7:15 pm:  if it's a cooking night**, i throw together something easy for dinner.


10 minute gourmet . . .

if not, i heat up leftovers and eat.  and blog!  <-- sunday's enchiladas = the reason i have the time to be writing this right now.

8:00 pm:  pump #4, perhaps while watching tv especially if josh is home.  clean up.

8:45 pm:  pass out.

1 - 2 am:  get up to feed annabel.  recently, it has just been once per night on most nights.  i am completely happy with this and just hope it stays that way.

* you might wonder where josh comes into play with all of this.  he leaves the house for work around 5 am  and comes home anywhere from 7 pm on a great night to not-at-all on the worst ones.  luckily, he will be on an easier rotation starting in august and we are both greatly looking forward to it!

** i've definitely streamlined things already.  more on that in a post to come.

SO:



that's my 'all'.  as it stands now.  of course i'd like more family time, more sleep, more vacation!  but i'm content.  happy, actually!  and that's enough of an 'ALL' for me.