musings from the deep: revisited

May 1, 2017

Nearly one year ago, I wrote a post about three.  We thought about, rehashed, ruminated over, and then sat on the idea for as long as I could stand.  And then it started to drive me slightly crazy, to a point where I just couldn’t live with the hanging question mark anymore.

SO we went for it, and here we are, with an 8-week ultrasound pic gracing our fridge:

not much to see yet so don’t mind the blurriness
I will discuss more later, but wanted to explain my (relative) absence.  I have been:
– nauseated all the time
– tired all the time
– disgusted by everything 99% of the time
– blah blah blah but really the first tri is MISERABLE and doesn’t seem to get any easier with age
I am also pretty sure I look approximately 16 weeks pregnant*.  Not sure what to say/do about that; it just is what it is.  I already have all of my patients looking at me sideways waiting for me to say something.
It’s still quite early so . . . anything could happen.  If things don’t work out, I will definitely write about that.  But I felt it best to come clean before this site dies because I just can’t bear to write another post that feels like lying by omission.  
* It’s not twins but apparently I have a (non-dangerous but sizable) fibroid enlarging my uterus.  So maybe that’s at least a partial excuse.  Fun!

51 Comments

  • Reply Michaela March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    YAY!!! Congrats!! We have 2 kids boy/girl about the same ages as A+C and are currently in discussion about #3 but still on the fence. So excited to live vicariously. Hope you feel better soon

  • Reply Erica March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    🙂 so happy for you guys! Have you told the kids yet?

    I was really bloated and big very early on in this pregnancy and terrified that I was having twins (because Clomid).. I hope you feel better soon! Maybe 3-4 weeks more until you get to the blessed second trimester.

  • Reply Emily March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congratulations!! That is fantastic news. Life with littles is so much fun and busy-ness and joy. Our #1 is 1 this week and I am looking forward to (hopefully) #2 and #3!

  • Reply monica March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Wow! Congratulations!

  • Reply Laura Vanderkam March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Yay! Congrats!! And yes, ugh, 8 weeks. Feels like hell. Can you imagine winning the Australian Open at this stage, a la Serena Williams? Here’s to getting through the next few weeks and on to that wonderful moment when you can eat something other than toast 🙂

  • Reply Erin March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congratulations! I hope you are feeling better soon — the first trimester is no joke for sure.

  • Reply Jaimie March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congrats! Long time reader, never comment, have two of my own and have contemplated number three a lot – very interested to see your commentary on it!

  • Reply Brittany Dixon March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Oh my goodness; I’m so thrilled for you!! Hoping the nausea passes quickly so you can come back and fill us in on details! 🙂

  • Reply Sneakers March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congrats! Perfect timing on cutting back (a bit) at work.

  • Reply Elisabeth March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congratulations! Hope you start feeling better as you head toward the second trimester…

  • Reply leebecknell March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congrats Sarah!

  • Reply Chelsea Myers March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congrats! I was actually wondering if that’s where you’d "gone". We are also expecting #3 – I’m 10 weeks along. We haven’t told the boys yet but soon. S was so little when W was born that I’m excited to have them both be able to participate in the whole new baby thing this time. And yeah… 8 – 12 weeks is just awful. How fun for your family, though!

  • Reply ashstrauss March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congratulations!!!

  • Reply Kristin March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congratulations! I remember that post well. Your link to lag liv made me realize I also want 3. I’m excited to read about your adventure with 3.

  • Reply Ali March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Yay! Congrats to your entire family! And feel better SOON!

  • Reply ida March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congrats!! wishing you a safe and healthy pregnancy

  • Reply Sara March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congratulations Sarah! So happy for you and your family! The first trimester is *the worst* and was significantly worse with my second son, so would be afraid what a third child would do to me! Think we’re all done at this point, although I am interested to hear your thoughts on having 3 kids. Your kids are both just slightly older than mine and the same age difference apart 🙂 Hope the next few weeks go by very quickly for you!!

  • Reply Elaine March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congratulations! What wonderful news! I hope you start to feel better soon.

  • Reply Lag Liv March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Yay!!! I’m so excited for you! That year-old post and your email to me were my inspirations to write on of my most precious (to me!) posts ever about our #3 (still makes me cry anytime I re-read it). I’m so excited for you and your family and this whole journey you’re embarking on :).
    http://lagliv.blogspot.com/2016/05/faq-should-i-h

  • Reply Anon March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Aw, such wonderful news! Congratulations! I am actually 30 weeks pregnant with my first right now, and during those awful early first trimester days I went back and read every single one of your old posts about being pregnant with your kids at that time. (So, a belated thank you!) I hope you start feeling better soon. So excited for your family!

  • Reply Cbs March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Such wonderful news! I’m 28 weeks along with my first (and threw up this am – apparently for some people, it never gets better!).

  • Reply Manasi March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congratulations! I hated the first trimester. Can’t imagine going through that with two kiddos!

  • Reply Sarah March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congratulations! What great news!

  • Reply Brittnie March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congrats!!

  • Reply Marci Gilbert March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Yay congrats! We are pregnant with #3 too! Also decided just to do it and not regret not doing it one day or want to do it and then feel too old. Hopefully #1 and 2 will be good distractions! I was in denial for about 12 weeks that we are really doing this.

  • Reply katheats March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congrats!!! So exciting!!

  • Reply Arden March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Congrats to you!

  • Reply Omdg March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Strong work, Sarah! Congratulations!

  • Reply beth March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    SO excited for you! I am 28 weeks with my first after 4 years of trying, and I found a lot of comfort in your posts on the topic – so, a belated thank you for that.

  • Reply Monica March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congrats, that is awesome. I hope it gets easier.

  • Reply Sheryl March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congratulations!!! So very exciting!! I hope you start feeling better soon 🙂

  • Reply Jenny March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congratulations, what fabulous news! So excited for you and your family!

    I’m currently 13w with #2; we were mostly one and done for a long time, but perpetually hand-wringing over the idea of a second, and this summed up pretty accurately what finally pushed us to go for it: "And then it started to drive me slightly crazy, to a point where I just couldn’t live with the hanging question mark anymore."

    I hope you start to feel better really soon…it’s so not a linear process, but I’m having moments here and there of coming out of the worst of it! Hang in there!

  • Reply Bethany March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congratulations, so happy to hear you came to a decision on it! I’m still incapacitated by the 3rd or no 3rd decision – ha! Hope you are feeling better very soon.

  • Reply emilymargaretnyc March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congratulations Sarah!! Very excited for you! Looking forward to hearing more about how your pregnancy is going and hope you start feeling better soon!

  • Reply kristen March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Ahhhh! Congratulations. 🙂

    And seriously, this site will not die until/unless you choose to kill it. I never mind when you take breaks, and I love when you come back with posts. I feel like you keep it so real.

  • Reply Solitary Diner March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congratulations, and wishing you all the best! Hope the horrible feelings pass quickly.

  • Reply Kimszym March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congratulations. Hopefully you will be feeling better soon.

  • Reply Victoria B. March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Yay!! I’ve been waiting for this announcement *wink*. I’m very happy for you and your family. I’m sure A&C are so excited! I hope you feel better soon.

  • Reply countingdowntildaddy March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congrats! So exciting and three is no harder than two 🙂 Trust me 😉

  • Reply Angie March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    That’s so exciting! Convratulations. I hope the second trimester comes quickly and you feel better soon. The tiredness and nausea Of the first trimester is the worst.

  • Reply Aly March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congrats!! I’m 16 weeks along with my first!!! I look forward to following along with your pregnancy!

  • Reply Ashley March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congrats! I’m due in a few weeks with #3. I look forward to reading about your journey. I definitely let my kids watch a few more movies that first tri and eat lots of mac n cheese while I felt terrible. That second tri is such a relief.

  • Reply edith March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congratulations! <3

  • Reply Kelley March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congrats! I love your blog and am an avid follower. Excited to be pregnant with our #3 at the same time as you. My eldest is Cameron’s age…so they will all be spaced approx 2 years apart. We are early, so I haven’t told the kids yet. Also due in a December! I’m a NP and hubby is going to start his EM fellowship this Summer. You give me hope for a light at the end of the tunnel. Keep the great posts coming!

  • Reply susanruns March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Ah so happy for you!! Congrats to you and Josh!

  • Reply Anne March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congrats Sarah! Exciting times.

  • Reply OrganisingQueen March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Such big congratulations to you! HOpe you feel better soon though 🙂

  • Reply Emily March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congratulations! Hope things go smoothly from here on out!

  • Reply Priyanka March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    So happy for you and your family! Congrats! Cannot wait to read more about your adventures with 3 kiddos!!!

  • Reply xykademiqz March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Congrats! All the best

  • Reply شركة & March 10, 2019 at 7:09 pm

    Great blog post, however only a few of the points were actually treated really good,I definitely enjoyed what you had to say.

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