Friday, January 09, 2015

alone time

Throughout my adult life, I've always been an ESFJ on the Meyers-Briggs personality inventory.  E stands for extrovert!  Lalalaaaa, I love people!

Until now.

Just kidding.  I still think think the characterization is accurate.  But lately I am feeling a pull towards creating more of my own space.  I think it is because there is just so little solitude and/or down time in my life the way it is currently.  My job is basically a serious of intimate meetings all day long, and I have to be very much "on".   Having others share so much of themselves with me is definitely a privilege, but it is also emotionally draining.  And then I drive home (I do enjoy the commute these days!) and home life is just a little crazy at our current juncture.  In some ways, it's nice to feel so needed.

In others, I'm needed out.

Running helps -- it's time alone, in the quiet, often outside -- definitely a respite, even if it's at 5am.  Writing or reading does too.  Social media most certainly does not, and yet it's a common escape route for me (hmmm).

I'm not sure what the answer to this -- I have no plans to change my very social job, and I'm unlikely to get a night off from A&C anytime soon.  I've considered a weekly yoga class out of the house in the evenings, but it's hard for me to justify the expense (and fine, there's a small guilt factor there too as I am a full-time working parent away from the home a lot already).

Does anyone else struggle with this -- even fellow extroverts?  Solutions?  Thoughts?

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Another Insta-pic -- I decided what to do with the yearly section of my Hobonichi!  


tracking my daily reading goal