There was so much sweetness and beauty in the past 6 months. I also have to be thankful, because I've had the most amazing help from our nanny and this has made things 800 million times easier than they were with Annabel. And yet -- it was still kind of hard. I found it really stressful to deal with both of them at the same time for a while (couldn't keep them both happy 100% of the time? Clearly I am a failure as a mother and a person). I didn't see how I could have any time ever for myself -- ever again. And you all know I stressed heavily about the whole milk thing.
WELL. Thankfully, I do feel like things are starting to get better now.
First of all, there's this:
The above is yesterday's view of the freezer. My stash survived to 6 months! In the past 2 weeks or so, I have finally settled into a rhythm of pumping/b-feeding that is not driving me insane, and I have high hopes of continuing to breast feed 2-3x/day as long as he will let me. C will get his first taste of formula later on this week, but I feel really good about making it until this point. Finally letting go of the obsession a few weeks ago has been incredibly freeing. I could say that I wish I had done it sooner, but I just wasn't ready.
Then there's this:
I'm not sure if we're truly over the sleep hump, but the past several days of decent rest have felt amazing. We did not sleep train, he just started . . . doing it. That said, last night he was up at 1 am and I did have to feed him, so . . . yeah. I can't start celebrating too soon. But it's a glimmer of hope about how much nicer life when you get to stay in bed all night.
Lastly, there's this:
He is truly starting to come alive! With babies, I forgot that not that much really happens for the first few months (although they are ridiculously cute and innocent and sweet) -- and then BAM. Obviously he's not talking yet, but he's starting to enter that period where milestones just start piling up and it's so exciting. He is such a good natured and easygoing sweet little thing and will laugh at almost anything -- especially his sister. I absolutely love seeing the two of them interact -- those moments are the most beautiful and rewarding ones of all.
I am slowly learning to be a mother-of-two and actually enjoying the evening stint of solo parenting (to be honest, I truly dreaded it at first). I am also carving out routines that work and that allow me to just be me sometimes. Which is why I am going to end this post now and sneak in a 3-miler right now.
Happy half-birthday, sweet Mr. C! Excited for what the next 6 months will bring!