Friday, January 10, 2014

looking up

thanks for your support on wednesday.  this past week was rough - i suspect a combo of recovering from being on call (that whole 'go to work 12 days in a row' thing has never really been my favorite) and just plain ol' pregnancy fatigue.  after a week of 0 workouts, more sleep, and catching up at work, life feels more manageable again.

(of course i'm on call again tuesday and the cycle will begin again!  but getting lots over with now will DEFINITELY pay off when i am a pumping mother of 2.  i am confident of this.)

i have decided that certain little things in life are in need of tweaking -- and that's aside from the HP goals.

based on what was clearly NOT working for me earlier in the week, i came to some sweeping conclusions:

1) some of my resolutions were too vague and therefore too HARD.  i felt like i was failing all of the time for not meeting 100% of the more nebulous ones.  therefore, i will clarify and make things a little more concrete (to be expanded upon on monday).

2) some of the routines that were working for me previously are simply NOT working for me right now.  annabel is in an earlier-rising phase and seems to be very sensitive to sound in the AM (maybe she lies there in the wee hours listening for any sign of action?) -- and thus morning workouts would not have been a viable option even if i DID have more energy this week. it may seem like a small thing, but exercise is definitely a foundation habit for me, and when i'm not doing it i have trouble with the rest of life. 

and so -- a trial of evening workouts it is.*  furthermore, perhaps i need to take my tiredness seriously and actually take it easier when i'm feeling lower on energy (and this pregnant).  this doesn't have to mean doing nothing, and in fact i do not think that is the answer.  but maybe some walks instead of runs are in order, and some other more low-key routines.  

3) i am actively working on my parenting approach.  from your comments (thank you e!) i realized that i am saying "no" too much.  i haven't started any of the books you all recommended yet (thank you!) but even just two strategies:

-- trying NOT to say no, but instead redirect/reinforce positive alternatives
-- acting as unruffled and chill as possilbe

. . . have already helped so far.  looking forward to putting these techniques more into practice this weekend!

4) I am actually considering using proper grammar on this blog -- like actual capital letters and things!  Although writing with lowercase feels like such a habit that i -- no, I -- do find it to be a bit of a struggle.  Don't worry, I don't do my charting at work with lowercase and [grammatically incorrect] brackets.

HAPPY WEEKEND!  we have a lot planned, and i'm looking forward to it.  more later!

* this worked much better when annabel was an infant, too -- so i suspect it will be a better fit with 2 as well.  and someday in the far-off future maybe i will return to morning sessions.  i'm starting to realize how transient each 'routine' really is with children, anyway.

and because i can never help myself . . .