i feel like i'm finally getting comfortable in my current SAHM [stay-at-home-mom] role.
i'm fitting in AM workouts. i'm keeping our
for the most part, i'm doing this on my own. and importantly, i'm really enjoying it. josh wasn't able to come home last night, but i wasn't balled up on the couch at 6pm feeling desperate for backup. as i gave annabel a bath and put her to bed myself, i felt self-sufficient and happy and calm. [and then i passed out at 8:30. yay!]
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of course, i'm not really a SAHM. i'm just pretending to be one for 12 weeks, 10 of which are now over -- and they really were lovely. but as i've mentioned, i do miss work and feel ready to go back. [note: SO glad i took the full 12 instead of 8, because i definitely did NOT feel this way back then, which would have made the transition much more painful].
i know the transition is going to come with a whole new set of challenges. instead of looking for ways to fill the hours, i know i'll be wishing for more time in each day. i'm going to have to get used to things being a little less neat and a little more chaotic. i'm going to be putting in full days in lab/clinic, punctuated by pump breaks. and i will still be doing most of it on my own.
but right now -- i feel . . . good. and confident! i can do this! a. and i are a team now. i feel more bonded to her every day -- her soft cheeks, her smiles, her ridiculous expressions. i love her, and love being her mama. and therefore, trepidations about pumping aside, we will find a way to make things work.**
* relatively clean. with the help of our every-other-week cleaning service. i don't deserve that much credit.
** this does not mean i will not have more meltdowns in the future. i realize that sometimes it's still going to be HARD.
of our morning playtime. i hope i will still be able to fit some of this in pre-work!
ignore my ridiculous baby-talk voice. can't help myself . . .
by the way, a. earned high marks on her motor skills at her doctor's visit last week! she's also up to the 25% [approximately] on height and weight, tipping the scales at 10 lb 5 oz. and her diaper area was described as pristine, which made me unreasonably proud.
6.12 + 6.13
workout 6.12 -- 4 mi easy run in 40 minutes - although this was broken up into two pieces!
dinner 6.12 -- leftovers
workout 6.13 -- rest day, although i ended up covering 4.5 miles on another walk with sara!
dinner 6.13 -- i wanted some sort of creamy shrimp pasta on the menu this week, so i dug up this old cooking light recipe from 2005. it was fairly time consuming [peeling shrimp/cooking bacon/making pasta and a separate sauce] but tasted indulgent and delicious. i was impressed at the creaminess achieved with just 2% milk and a bit of flour -- although i'm sure the copious amount of parmesan helped.
i would make this again, but probably not on a weeknight.