Thursday, December 15, 2011

resolutions 2012 [part 1] + 24 weeks

thoughts about resolutions
i have been doing a lot of thinking about my typical january resolutions. i am completely guilty of the following december sins:

making far too many resolutions at once. examples: 16 in 2006, 18 in 2008. i've gotten a bit better about this over the years, but i still think i'd be better off narrowing my focus.

drafting the same resolutions every year without really changing my plan of attack. if it didn't work in 2011, why would things magically change in 2012?

resolving to do things that are really not under my control. this year, i'd love to resolve to get a job for when i finish fellowship, but in reality this depends more on the market/availability than anything else! instead, it would be more realistic to resolve to send out resumes early; be proactive about making phone contacts; etc.

tracking accomplishments rather than efforts -- and then getting discouraged.

don't get me wrong - there are some instances where it is absolutely necessary to track accomplishments. when i've had a big intimidating project with a due date [big and pricey exam*, grant, paper draft], this is the way i tend to go -- and it works.

but when it's a just-for-me endeavor?

i find that tracking effort [spanish example below!] is much more satisfying.

it's not perfect, but it's definitely something!

and in contrast, here's my sad little accomplishment-based list for after-work studying:

i swear i didn't quit in october

looks pretty pathetic, doesn't it? and while the truth is i'm sure i could have put in more effort, it actually hasn't been such a wash. the chapters just took much longer than i anticipated, and i decided not to spend evenings on call hunkered down over a textbook [the pager stresses me out enough].

i hinted at this previously, but i think i am going to go with a one resolution per month format in 2012. good old leo would encourage me to quit altogether, but i continue to disagree wholeheartedly with his goal-free proselytizing. what do you think?

* congrats to anyone reading this received word about passing the pediatrics boards yesterday! such a wonderful feeling, right!?

24 weeks
i can't believe that just over 6 weeks ago it was halloween and i looked like this:

~18 weeks

and now we're headed into the holidays and i look like THIS:

~24 weeks

so far, i am having a very uneventful pregnancy -- definitely the most important part. but lately, a few annoyances pregnancy side effects have begun cropping up as i creep towards the finish line of the 2nd tri.

mood swings: too many tears. seriously.

bladder pressure: oddly, i am able to go longer at night without getting up compared to the first trimester! but during the day, i tend to have to stop at the bathroom at least once an hour. and honestly, i'm not even drinking that much throughout the day -- i should probably be going even more!

slowdown: my runs are definitely slowing down -- i did 3.1 miles at 10:30/mi pace on tuesday. pretty soon, i am guessing i will be adding some walking intervals to my runs. i am still feeling good, though! and i can just still zip my favorite winter running top. luckily, when it ceases to fit i have a cheap solution: JOSH'S CLOSET. at this point, i really don't feel like i need some fancy maternity techware for my 30 minute AM jaunts. however, this horrifying item may become a necessity at some point. we'll just have to see . . .

cravings: are pretty much gone. as i mentioned before, i just need food these days -- i'm not that picky. i ate the same fish chowder for dinner the last 3 nights in a row [never pictured because it was NOT pretty!]. i am loving the product below this week, but i'm sure i'd be a huge fan whether or not my uterus was inhabited.

a delicious way to get those few extra allotted pregnancy calories . . .

weight: uhhh, speaking of calories, right? i don't have my official appointment until next week, but i think i'm up about 13 lbs. maybe 14. it definitely feels like a lot, but according to the dreaded calculator, this is normal and right on track.

missing: wine. holiday parties without a glass of red [. . . or 3?] -- not the same.

wearing: what seems like the same things all the time -- i guess this is why women get sick of maternity wear! and i have to admit i'm nervous as to how long my current outfits will last [ie, will i outgrow them in a few weeks?]. i'm hoping i can at least get to the end of january, when i will retreat back to the lab. i can then wear the same thing daily and probably no one will notice or care!

new baby acquisition: thanks to my wonderful west coast friend sara, i now have an itzbeen baby timer!


ahhh so exciting! i have no doubt that i will use this in the newborn period. [bonus: i could see this coming in handy for contractions as well :) ].

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12.14.11

workout: 30 minutes on the elliptical

dinner: as i mentioned above -- some more never-ending fish chowder. for the third night in a row. tonight, we're just going to have to move on.

espanol: check. um, mi su├ęter es gris. [true statement.]

reading: 25 minutes on glycogen storage and fatty acid oxidation disorders. i'm so glad i'm not a metabolism expert -- that stuff makes my head spin.