Wednesday, July 06, 2011

finding a new groove

routine
you know that feeling of going seamlessly from one activity to the next, confidently knowing you're on time and going about your day in just the right fashion?

i miss it.

in my new work role, living in our new apartment in a new town -- i'm just not there yet. i truly believe it is the reason for recent mishaps, for some uncharacteristic writer's block, and for the uneasy feeling that greets me when i wake up and i'm just NOT SURE how the day is going to go.

this helps, however.


i think getting back in the habit of really thinking out my day in advance will serve me well for the less-naturally-structured lab years. right now, it seems to help alleviate the anxiety that comes with having a full BLANK work day [without clearly defined tasks + assignments, no less!] staring me in the face.

even though that seems like an odd thing to stress about, coming out of residency and the clinical portion of fellowship, i really was used to seeing every day as a fairly well-defined to-do list: see this patients; write these notes; call these providers + parents -- ad nauseum. it was comforting to have an obvious starting [and ending!!] point, and most of the time, i never had to give a conscious thought to how i would best fill the workday hours.

now, i run the show. i can decide when to do certain experiments, which hours to devote to planning/thinking [note to self: MORNING!!!], and which hours are best spent on mindless tasks. i can take a decent break for lunch, taking time to read a little and even go for a short walk if i want to. finally, if i am efficient and play my cards right, i can leave the lab at the end of the day in time for yoga class without rushing or fretting about it.

you know, actual CLASS as opposed to . . . whatever this was

don't get me wrong: i want to get things done in lab -- my goal is to have data ready for publication by the end of my 2-year stretch, and something fit for poster presentation at a meeting by this spring, if possible. but i really want to enjoy life during this more relaxed period as well. i realize it is going to take some time to find that elusive balance, but i suppose that's part of the challenge -- and the fun.

PS
note to anyone headed into the hospital today, new interns and curmudgeonly seniors alike: SMILE! i just dropped josh off at the front and noted a diverse group [from doctors to cleaning staff] of 20 stone-faced individuals headed towards the door. no one was interacting, and no one was smiling. come on! i promise, it can't be that bad . . .

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7.5.11

workout: nada [ended up dealing with car issues -- this time josh's civic -- instead. someday we'll both have vehicles that function!]

inaugural super natural everyday recipe
i would call this delicious asian-leaning toasted coconut + kale salad a success! served with salmon [wild sockeye, rubbed in olive oil + a little soy sauce] + whole grain udon noodles to round out the meal.

here's the recipe, as posted by serious eats

heidi suggests farro as an optional grain to be added to the mix. i actually was planning to do this, but found out a little too late [ie, 7:30 pm last night] that it needed 8 hours of soaking prior to use. noodles it was! and they worked.