what goes up . . .
apparently, my reward for writing yesterday’s upbeat post was a series of several not-so-gentle reminders that — well, $#!% happens.
$#!% like a minor car accident [thank goodness, no one hurt!!! just cars, and pretty soon our bank account]. $#!% like yet another disappointment from first response, which i really encourage you to buy stock in [i shudder to think of the hundreds of dollars i have poured into these things]. $#!% like feeling really out of control and just NOT together at work, with both clinical demands and research issues [and presentations galore] piled up seemingly all at once.
ANYWAY. i am trying to treat these events as lessons. and the major lesson which sticks out to me is one of patience.
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the truth is: i don’t have much of it. not in my car, and not with my uterus. and i KNOW this! it’s not that i have not tried to slow down and stop hurrying/rushing/wishing; it’s just that it is a very hard habit to break.
but i’ll keep trying.
retreat report
after arriving home from the slightly traumatizing post-work events yesterday, i did manage to hit my mat for some yoga therapy à la dave farmar. if you’d like to catch up on some of the previous retreat posts, they’re all compiled here.
collection of retreat posts so far:
week 1: inside/out
day 1: ideal day + implementing one element
day 2: sleep
day 3: nutrition
day 4: movement
day 5: self-compassion/body image
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🙁 Sorry. I can relate a lot; with me it’s that I have way too many negative thoughts and don’t appreciate all that I have as much as I should, constantly.
This move is making me appreciate just how much NJ/NY held for me, and how I deemed it all not enough. It’s been hard to come to terms with, but also a completely eye-opening experience and I hope it’ll be for the better.
Chapel Hill will hold a TON for me as well, namely greener areas, farmer’s markets, nicer people (I made the rank list when I was on a team that was blatantly MEAN to me), a calmer lifestyle, a really really good program, etc. So, I mean, there is no perfect road to take, I guess, even if one would seem far more preferable especially when it wasn’t totally your choice to have made.
I hope things pick up!
Also, leo’s post today was dead-on perfect!!
Also, as for CH, I don’t think my response went through since it was via my phone. I am gonna live in Alta Springs; I still haven’t seen it but it seems like a safe and still affordable option with a few more bus options, though still isolated. I’ll see how it goes and I’ll explore the area a bit in the next year. Carrboro looks promising (though I haven’t been there at all).
Sorry about the BFN. I know how it feels when they just keep on coming 🙁 i’d suggest you buy internet cheapies instead of FR – much easier on the bank account! ;0
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