when i was little, i used to save things. each fall, i preserved my snow-white keds in my closet, trying to hold out as long as possible before wearing them to school where invariably i would muck them all up on the playground. i hoarded stationery supplies, carefully arranged in drawers for years, never sending my prettiest cards or using the fanciest erasers. my halloween candy was savored piece by piece, and usually lasted until at least march.
20 years later (eek), i still occasionally find myself with similar impulses. but then i realize how fleeting life really is, and hey -- no one is going to deny me another pair of keds (or, you know, cherry juice heels, as the case may be) if i mess up my current ones.
except sometimes, i still find myself falling back on these habits. only now, it's more complicated! you see, i really wanted to go shopping, but i had been sort of sitting back and waiting, hoping that these dreams would come true and render my usual wardrobe choices useless within a few short months. in the same vein, i have been avoiding any sort of training for races, even though it is something that i love to do.
but so far, things are not proving to be SO easy (what? everything in the world is not under my control!?!?), and i think that perhaps if i just relax and live my life, maybe that will help things fall into place.
and so yesterday, josh and i hit the mall.
i tried on about 50 of the sweater-coats that are very in right now and finally (with my fashion advisor's help) decided that they are just not meant for my body type. i ended up with this tabbed military sweater jacket instead:
and while this one top does not exactly fix my closet imbalance in one fell swoop, at least it's a start:
in the same vein, i am also contemplating signing up for a race of some sort. not anything crazy (even though evidence is lacking, i sort of feel like marathon training and fertility do not go together all that well, unless you're these ladies), but maybe a winter 5K or 10K. i do not plan on amping up mileage, but just adding back some structure (and speed!) to my
workouts. if my race plans get derailed by a positive beta-HCG -- well, awesome.
is there anyone out there who can relate to this 'life on hold' phenomenon as it relates to TTC, or perhaps some other big life milestone? i would love to hear your experiences and advice.
extra excited to head out on my run this morning after downloading new albums from two of my favorite artists:
off to get things done (yesterday turned out to be much more of a relaxed day).
oh, and of course: happy halloween!
workout: for a change of pace, i headed to spin class. the classes at my gym aren't always my favorite, often featuring music from the 70s, a decade that i (thankfully) missed altogether. however, yesterday's class had fun tracks from rihanna to beyoncé, and i had a great time while sweating a totally ridiculous amount.
restaurant revu: buku: i just haven't been able to bring myself to whip out my ol' camera out at darkened, trendy restaurants these days -- and buku in raleigh certainly fits this description. they have an extremely eclectic international menu focused on recreations of street food.
i was excited to try it, but had read some really mixed reviews. in particular, several diners lambasted the restaurant for being overly expensive with miniscule small plates. for the record, we did not have that experience at all! we ordered 8 small plates among 4 of us, and with a bottle of wine, an extra mixed drink, dessert, and coffee thrown in there, the total check for each couple came to under $70 (pre tax/tip)!
the atmosphere was fun and swanky, and the dishes were on the whole tasty (though not everything was fantastic). if you go, i recommend the fattoush, jade prawns, and korean barbeque; we were not really fans of the papadum (just kind of greasy + boring). i liked the bao (steamed pork buns), but josh, who was comparing them to those he had enjoyed in china, felt they needed more pork!