it occurred to me the other morning that i have eaten some variation of this breakfast nearly every day for the past 2+ years:
i know, right? sure, i mix it up a little:
✔ sometimes i'll use whole grain toaster waffles instead of my beloved ezekiel english muffins
✔ sometimes i substitute almond or sunflower seed butter for the traditional peanut variety (my favorite is actually the just peanuts & salt 365 brand - smooth and luscious!)
✔ the fruit does vary. from banana slices to an apple with cinnamon to fresh figs or berries, i'll use whatever we have around.
sometimes i see breakfast ideas in magazines or blogs and think that i might branch out. for example, caitlin's recent autumn grilled banana sandwich looks pretty spectacular, and clean eating offers some great savory ideas like this arugula and goat cheese frittata, which really would be pretty easy to prep ahead of time.
but when the morning actually arrives, i never actually want anything other than my old standard. since it's healthy and does a pretty good job sustaining me for 4-5 hours, maybe there is no harm in continuing in my food rut. if it ain't broke . . .
but what about the rest of the day?
to be honest, lately i've been feeling kind of rutty (is that really a word? blogger's auto spellcheck seems to think so . . .) for my other meals as well. i haven't really been inspired to cook as often as i used to, and my lunches are starting to become very predictable: most days it's a pre-made frozen wrap and some kind of raw vegetable on the side, sometimes with hummus for dipping.
but -- they are still a pre-wrapped convenience item, which in my view is not ideal for everyday consumption. to make things worse, this meal is often eaten in the span of about 5 minutes between seeing patients, answering phone calls, or commuting from one clinic building to the hospital.
the cycle continues
so obviously, someone who runs regularly and has a fairly active job cannot live on a little wrap as her only mid-day sustenance, right?
well, i can't, anyway. so i snack. and lately, that's been mostly on bars and other pre-packaged delights. however, even with these supplements, i still come home absolutely ravenous most days. this would work out fairly well if i could come home and simply cook and eat dinner. unfortunately, josh's hours are less than ideal and he doesn't usually make it in for at least another hour -- or sometimes 2+.
i find this the most frustrating! at this point, my body is crying out for a real dinner. no amount of munching on snack foods (either of the fruit/vegetable variety or something more energy-dense) really does the trick for me until i've eaten enough to not really be hungry for dinner -- and that makes cooking much less enjoyable.
often i do hold out and just wait, but the profound lack of energy (seriously, sometimes i wish i had a glucometer to verify that my blood sugar hasn't dropped to 45) isn't much fun either, and it means that when we do finally dine together i tend to snarf everything in about 5 minutes. also not ideal. going out at this point is also dangerous; last night i inhaled a plate of tofu and vegetables in a rich peanut sauce and later lived to regret it (don't worry -- i survived!).
the good news
i'm lucky -- despite all this, my jeans still fit fine. however, i think that my energy has suffered (perhaps causing some of my 'off' days this past week?) and i've just been feeling less than my best. also, my overall enjoyment of food is down. as a card-carrying gourmet, this makes me a little sad!
things that i would like to work on
■ packing less processed lunches and actually taking the time to enjoy them
■ eating more mindfully (and slower!) when i do sit down to a meal
■ figuring out a way to quell the tide of pre-dinner ravenousness
■ varying breakfast? maybe. but this one might just be a lost cause!
any ideas for me, healthy livers? <-- not referring to that all important organ tucked under your right ribcage
i'd be grateful if you'd send me your thoughts! and with that, i'm off to live my saturday: massage and all! i hope you are all enjoying wonderful weekends as well.