except i'm done with $ (for now). instead, i wanted to address something else that is often suggested by the emerald shade:
and that is envy.
specifically, virtual-envy, if you will. i was reading a few really popular blogs this morning and noticed that i was feeling these little nagging pangs of jealousy as i read about new book deals, earning a full salary from one's posts, and hearing amazing numbers like one million views/month (let's just say i'm not sure if this blog has collected a million views EVER in its 6 year lifespan).
the thing is, i have absolutely no personal issues with these successful women -- actually, i truly like and respect the ones i have met in real life! but i think it's only natural to wonder (especially as someone doing this for quite a long time) what i could be doing better to grow my readership and turn blogging into more of a part-time career. or, put in a more negative light, what am i doing wrong that i haven't "gotten anywhere" after all this time?
. . . AAAAAAAAAND then i snap back to reality and remember that i already have a more than full-time job in my own little corner of the medical field; a job that i truly love! from this angle, it might look glamorous to fly out to conference after conference, eating delicious treats while smiling for the camera, but i'm far too much of a homebody (and not nearly photogenic enough) for that to make me happy for long.
my reality is less glamorous, but it is much more 'me.' and i think i can let the green hue fade to a prettier blue now. tiffany-blue, perhaps.
i hope i am not offending anyone with this post; i just wanted to acknowledge these thoughts. i think that following blogs can be a wonderful and fun experience, but also dangerous in that you see just this little slice of someone's life -- and it's often a more perfect picture than what is really there. NOT that i blame anyone for this; who wants to write about legal issues or little marital snits? (and who really wants to read about those things, anyway?)
the next time i notice these wistful pangs, i will remember that no one is holding a gun to my head and forcing me to train as a pediatric endocrinologist (that would be random, huh?). while it may not come with all that much fame & fortune, it is definitely as rewarding and interesting, and i feel lucky to have gotten where i am.
i also feel incredibly lucky to have the readers (and loyal commenters!) that i have. you all often provide substance in your insights that is often worth more than a million hits put together!
[i am still holding out for the book deal, though.]
just some food for thought on a thursday. has anyone had similar thoughts? if you are a blogger, do you have aspirations of doing so professionally? and if you are a publisher, can i have a book deal?
(sorry, couldn't help it.)
happy thursday! the week is flying.
workout: 5 miles on the TM (i had to stop and answer two pages, but it wasn't TOO bad). 2 miles were at 8:00/mi pace, the rest was 8:35 to 9:13.
almost vegan: this polenta casserole from ED & BV was vegan UNTIL i sprinkled some jalopeno cheddar on top.
real cheese >>> fake cheese. i just couldn't help it! the polenta crust got sort of fluffy and crunchy in the oven and was absolutely delicious. i'm looking forward to leftovers tonight!
reading: 15 PREP questions. i'm still on track with my study plan!