it’s not always easy

February 10, 2010

perspective. perspective. perspective.
okay, i’ll just come out and admit it: i’m feeling totally stressed out and overwhelmed right now. operation yoga + wine was a total fail, as my partner in crime came down with a wicked case of what looked like food poisoning, and i didn’t get out of the hospital until 30 minutes after yoga class started.


no matter how much i try to corral everything into to-do lists and plan things in manageable stages, my head is swimming with half a dozen projects and commitments [research proposal! senior talk! QI project! morning case report! procedure issues! medical licensure stuff! BOARDS!] and it just feels overwhelming. i need TIME to work on these things, and i don’t see any peaceful blocks up ahead in the near-enough future.

my parents-in-law are coming this weekend (hi B + S!), which is wonderful, except it necessitates an apartment cleanup, and i feel like josh and i are going to be terrible hosts since we will both be working half the weekend. i miss josh, who is on nights again, and there is some career stuff (his, not mine) that is eating away at me daily and won’t be resolved for at least a couple of months.

my patient team right now is large and doesn’t show signs of shrinking, and i will be playing “resitern” for the next 2 mornings. i feel like i don’t know the details of all of the patients as well as i would like to, and i hate that.

finally, the weather is completely disgusting and i seem to have lost the motivation to get up early to work out, which is usually the only thing that keeps me going in times like these.

IT’S OFFICIAL. I’M STRESSED OUT.

and, i feel horrible about even writing that, because hello? i’m taking care of kids with cancer, and this happened not even a month ago. perspective. perspective. PERSPECTIVE, for #($*&$’s sake.

omg. okay. so.
wow, that just all came flowing out. guess i probably could have used that yoga class last night, huh? i am sitting here right now trying to breathe and take things one step at a time, and i will try my best to do that today.

wish me luck.

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2.9.10

workout: none [SEE WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I DON’T RUN? endorphins are like my prozac.]

i thought that eating some of this for dinner might help:

but really, it didn’t (it was delicious, though). with some crackers + baba ghanoush, i almost had all 4 food groups . . .

reading: no.

7 Comments

  • Reply Anonymous March 10, 2019 at 7:26 pm

    Don&#39t be so hard on yourself. You have a lot going on. It&#39s okay to be stressed out. Hopefully it&#39ll get better soon.

  • Reply Diana March 10, 2019 at 7:26 pm

    Aww…sorry to hear you&#39re stressed out hunnie! I hate that feeling! It helps me to take one day at a time and try to remember to just do the best I can with what I have and to let go of the things out of my control.

    Sending big hugs your way!
    🙂 Diana

  • Reply rosasharona March 10, 2019 at 7:26 pm

    From one stressed out/overtired person to another: remember it won&#39t last forever!!! Take a minute here and there to center yourself and breathe…easier said than done!

  • Reply Lu March 10, 2019 at 7:26 pm

    It&#39ll all work out. You&#39re doing good work, and even though it is overwhelming right now, it will all normalize very soon. Coconut ice cream is the perfect boost on some nights. Hope today is better.

  • Reply Anonymous March 10, 2019 at 7:26 pm

    i totally feel you about the stress! perspective is key and just keep in mind that life fluctuates so this craziness will eventually end. that&#39s what i keep telling myself

  • Reply Jess March 10, 2019 at 7:26 pm

    You are so organized all the time and it&#39s ok if you don&#39t get everything done!

    How is that "ice cream"? I&#39ve seen it before but I don&#39t like coconut–can you taste the coconut or does it just taste like cookie dough?

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