Monday, February 01, 2010

assorted evening musings

a late, introspective post tonight!
as these night float weeks really are challenging ones for me, i am trying to really embrace a mindful approach to each day. pain is inevitable, suffering is optional, right?

a post from the mindfulist caught my eye and then came to mind multiple times during my post-call day:

entitled cringe, the post simply said:
"Is there one task you perform daily that makes you cringe? Pause to notice it this time. Then, take three breaths, relax around it and return to it."
i saw this and realized that i cringe multiple times a day. honestly, it doesn't even take much -- i cringe on a dime. here are a few examples:

when the kitchen is dirty and i see that i need to clean it

when i hear about a new admission or transfer (sometimes even if i'm not going to be there to see them!)

when my to-do list seems to be longer than my energy stores

when i miss a green light

ad nauseum.

i really, REALLY do not hate my life; actually, the opposite is true. and i don't even hate any of the tasks or occurrences on the list above! i may be more tired than i would like during this particular 2 week period, but it's temporary and i'm not going to keel over from sleep deprivation in this short of a time frame.

i think that in some ways, i (and many others) are just conditioned to have this inner #(*$&@# response to a VAST array of different stimuli: big or small, important or completely insignificant.

and i would like to work on changing this. so thanks, mindfulist. your post was much simpler than the ramblings i just splattered all over this screen, but it was very meaningful.

speaking of #(*$&@#

it's my first anthropologie shopping cart casualty! no more tic tac toe in my size.

i mean, clearly this would fall into the category of "things worth $(*$&@#-ing about." except not really. at all. i mean, come on! there's always ebay . . .

new month, new cooking project!
i'm going to keep it simple for february. it's going to be a busy month, with long(ish) hours and another week of nights. therefore, i'm going for easy and at my fingertips.

and, what's easier than leaning a little bit on my favorite bloggers?

yes -- this month's recipe focus will be on making all of those dishes that i've "marked with star" on my reader but never got the chance to try out! this week will features recipes from faith's an edible mosaic (one of the prettiest cooking blogs out there) and morgan's live, love, eat & play (she writes with a voice that goes with the blog's uplifting name).

if you are a blogger and have a favorite MUST-TRY recipe to suggest for me, let me know! i'm on the lookout for ideas and inspiration. and, simplicity and ease is a plus this month! sorry martha . . . i guess i've really moved on.

Q&A of the day
"i've always wondered . . .How the heck do you keep up with your fitness routine and crazy shift-work hours???"

well, my hours really aren't always that crazy! just sometimes. for when they are, here are my go-to tricks:

planning out my workouts in advance -- one week at a time! i allow for some flexibility, but i try to take a realistic look at what else is gong on for the week and decide exactly when and how i will get my runs/XT in. i do this every sunday.

work out post call. i always feel better after i run, and post-call is no exception. sometimes i REALLY have to convince myself of this to get my butt out the door, but 99% of the time it works (and is true).

work out in the AM whenever possible. i MUCH prefer morning workouts even if it means getting up well before 5AM. it gets the day started on such a great note, and takes away the end-of-day-stress about getting out "in time" to get the gym (i'd rather NOT be rushing to the finish line of my day). plus, i generally feel super-lazy after a long clinic day and i'd prefer to just succumb to my couch potato (fine, often bed-potato) instincts.

sometimes i don't keep up and i just take a week to not push myself so hard. i don't do this often, but when i just feel like my mind and body absolutely need the rest, i do. this almost always works to get me back in the mood for my normal routine the next monday.

hope this was helpful to whoever asked :) the anonymous vortex is still open, and i have many ?s to go (i'm saving the juicier ones, of course!), so this will likely be a semi-regular feature for a while.



workout: 11 miles on the treadmill, 0.5% incline. thanks to real simple, this actually went by fairly quickly! speeds varied from 9:13 - 8:57/mi. i was supposed to do 13, but decided that 11 was enough for an indoor run (i was overheating like crazy, too -- our gym is a little sunny OVEN). am i the only weird one who runs faster outside?

a little southwestern flair:
amy's vegetarian chili + multigrain tortilla with avocado, gouda, and black beans inside

this was great except for the mediocre "low carb" tortilla. by accident, i bought a package of super low-cal, low carb tortillas (seriously big wraps for 60 calories each . . . huh?) and rather unsurprisingly, they just aren't good. you get what you pay for in carbs, i suppose! i would not buy these again.

reading: i spent over an hour working on applying for my NC medical license instead. um, oops?


  1. Anonymous11:36 PM

    I was feeling miserable, the least mindful person ever today (feeling, but hopefully not outwardly showing, impatience with the sweetest nurse who was updating my immunization record) and I came home, did a workout, and felt a million times better.

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    i definitely have an inner %$#%#$ to multiple stimuli and like you i don't hate life. it's just like i'm programmed to say a 4-letter word at certain moments even if in the next second i'm over it. haha

    i have a great mac & cheese recipe. while i've never actually made it (hello college dorms and mom's home cookin'!) it's still nice and simple. and probably nothing truly special or different. but since my friend gave it to me it's the best mac and cheese ever to me. i'll email it to you soooon. :)

  3. You are so sweet, thank you!
    I cringe when people snap their gum all of the time, it just rubs me the wrong way!

  4. definitely agree with you that i find it much easier to run faster outside than inside - and i'm very impressed you managed 11 miles on the treadmill. i've gotten to 7 inside so far this winter and adding each additional mile every week is slightly torturous.

  5. Hi Sarah, first time commenter and somewhat frequent reader! Just wanted to say that I really enjoy reading about your adventures in the kitchen. I am a huge fan of NPR's The Splendid Table but don't have the cookbook yet, so it's been fun to see your recipes. Looking forward to more!

  6. I absolutely cringe when I hear I'm getting an admission or transfer. A transfer is definitely better than an admission, but I am NEVER happy about having another patient. I wish I could be more mindful about this situation, but that's doubtful!

    I like your quesadilla combo...I'm going to have to give that a try!

  7. Way to go on the 11-miler on the treadmill, especially with such a crazy schedule. Inefficiency and waste make me cringe. My gut reaction is the get really irritated at the smallest things like someone leaving the gym shower dripping, or show drivers, or THE WORST- when someone leaves the soda mini-fridge door open in the line at Target/the grocery store. Ahhh! It's making me crazy just to think about that one. Deep breaths...

  8. I noticed that I cringe over change...don't know why really, but I do know I need to work on it.

    Thanks so much for the sweet shout-out! Lol...I'm afraid I've had to say googbye to Martha too...I just seem to mess up way too many of her recipes! :)

    By the way, those California fruit bars look incredible! (Love the goo factor minus the guilt ;).) I'll be checking out that recipe!

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