blog musings and a confession
despite starting on a great new rotation, yesterday was just sort of blah for me. i spent most of the day wishing that i had another day off to recharge, which is silly because for once i'd just enjoyed a full weekend. luckily, vacation does not loom too far ahead -- but i don't want to spend this whole month just fantasizing about days off to come.
so here's to making the most of each day on my endocrine rotation!
i really didn't feel like doing anything yesterday afternoon, so i didn't. i picked up some groceries, but didn't want to make anything, read anything, or do anything at all, really. i had ricotta spread and crackers for dinner, rounded out by some almond butter and (dark) chocolate. i also went to bed without doing a lick of reading, even though i have tons of things i now want to (and need to) learn about for my new rotation (which also happens to be my future career).
and you know what? that part isn't the confession . . . but here it comes.
i felt bad -- not because of the poorly balanced nutrition content of my dinner, or skipping out on my 'homework', but because it meant admitting my slacker ways and not having any doin' time picture in this morning's post!
i will admit that sometimes knowing that i have readers to report back to DOES impact my decisions -- once in a while, having this automatic accountability will push me to squeeze in a workout or do my reading at night when trashy magazines and my BED are wailing out to me with their siren calls. is this a good thing? or is it totally ridiculous? i'm undecided.
if you blog, have you experienced this phenomena? and if so, how do you deal with it? i think i am probably wayyyy overestimating the number of people waiting with baited breath for my next martha creation! because let's face it, i haven't exactly reached julie powell status yet, and even she went overboard with her focus on her dedicated readers. as josh would say, i need to 'get over myself.' then again, maybe it's not such a bad thing to have an extra source of motivation . . .
food for thought.
thank you all for the lovely comments on yesterday's post! i suspect you all are being nice and diplomatic, but i appreciate it nonetheless. i actually really liked getting the honest appraisal from anonymous, who didn't like the drapey gray sweater very much (i still do, though, so i'm keeping it!). this is why my favorite person to get fashion advice from is my sister -- she is NOT going to coddle me or mince words.
anonymous, i really did appreciate the feedback. but i don't necessarily agree with your take on following fashion trends in general. i think this deserves further discussion, so here goes!
she (i assume you are female?) wrote:
"I don't buy into the designers need to enhance their bank accounts by tweaking the jean style every year. "oh no, my jeans are not the latest approved style, I must be an old fuddy-duddy." Unless they're the high-waisted, tight ankle big pocketed ones of like 15 years ago I think you're okay. The super skinny jeans of the latest trend are only good on one specific body type - which you may have - but most do not. I'm hoping we can rush the designers through their latest dictum of jean style.
Who up there is making these rules, anyway? I envision a secret Star Chamber of designers laughing maniacally as they institute the latest in fashion law whilst counting their piles of gold."
you know what? anonymous, you sound a bit like my mom (although i think she may care even less about current denim trends)! while the last part of the comment may be true to some extent, it's quite a cynical take. i still think there is an element of art left in fashion, and i take pleasure in reading elle and scheming about how i can make current trends work for me, even if i don't always have the time or money to actually do so.
definitely NOT my legs
i don't want new jeans because my old ones make me feel fuddy-duddy (and for the record -- i stlll like my old ones, too!). i want them because i think the newer silhouettes look kind of fresh and NOW and i guess i enjoy updating my wardrobe every so often. fashion can be fun (especially in the fall, as noted on the above vogue cover!), and like it or not, my mood is elevated when i am wearing something that i feel particularly good about.
(which is why i plan on rocking a dress today.)
of note, i still have some things that i wear from 7-8 years ago -- so i'm not exactly throwing out everything and starting over with each new season. that would be wasteful, very un-ecofriendly, and financially unsustainable, at least for me!
thoughts? comments? remarks? [mom, if you're reading this, i know you will have something to say!]
off to do some reading
for real this time! it is september 1st, after all. we got an interesting consult about the use of estrogen for recurrent pulmonary hemorrhage, so i am going to look into that . . .
workout: 4.5 mile recovery run before work on the TM (it was raining cats & dogs!). pace = 8:57/mi, 0.5% incline. marie claire certainly kept me entertained enough.
doin' time: nope! see above.
reading: another negative. see, i feel guilty writing this! i don't know whether this is a good or bad thing.