i've been rather preoccupied lately, mostly about my prelim exam which actually seems to be coming up in the not-so-distant future. for this exam, we have to:
- write an abstract (mine is due on thursday, though i thought it was due THIS thursday, so fortunately it's essentially done -- i just need my boss's stamp of approval)
- write a grant in NSRA format (ie: the type of document a post-doc would submit in order to get funding for whatever project they want to work on)
- present the grant to committee (4-5 crotchety pharmacology investigators)
- get pimped on any aspect of your project and even potentially other things related to 'coursework' (although i have heard this doesn't happen very often)
i'm stressed about it. kind of a lot. in fact, it is sort of sucking the life from me. i'm in lab right now, doing absolutely nothing because while i had planned to happily extract protein and RNA from yesterday's samples, maybe run a gel, run a real-time-- my experiment totally failed (for the nth time) and so i'm left to just twiddle my thumbs and 'work on my prelim'. which, really, i just cannot do right now. so i might just leave. but i don't want to be that girl -- you know, THAT GIRL, who sort of floats in and out of lab while everyone else is working oh-so-diligently on this gorgeous friday afternoon.
except that maybe today i will be. oh well.