Wednesday, July 20, 2016

Trying not to sing the on-call blues ...

On call, aaaaaand . . .feeling a little blah.  There is just something about being ON for the patients and ON for the family and presumably still ON a little bit for me (ie, being responsible about health, little life details, etc) that is just soooooooo draining.  Without call, I feel like I can really just zoom into my work brain ~8:30 - 5* -- but when all the sudden the edges bleed over -- even theoretically** -- well, I find it hard.  Very draining.  When I was a (childless) fellow, I would go home and lie on the couch and basically baby myself until the week was over.  Now?  I leave and shift into parenting mode the second I walk through the door.  And I'm never present on call evenings, as much as I hate to admit it.

Yesterday I self-soothed with double device time (including a horrifying amount of aimless scrolling) + crappy eating.  And it didn't really work - just woke up feeling bad about my lame night. 
Tonight I am going to try to do better - attempt a barre3 workout (home) after the kids are in bed, and then either hang out with Josh (if home) or read or watch another episode of Crazy Ex-Girlfriend WITHOUT another device in my hand.  Wish me luck . . .

(List-making also might be a stress relief activity for me!)

* Yes, those are my hours unless I'm on call (call = 20% of the time).  Yes, I know many doctors work more.  In my defense I think I get a lot done in that time frame.

** Even if I don't get called, I'm thinking about my inpatients and maybe even some of the imaginary calls I could get)

Monday, July 18, 2016

good morning MONDAY

1) Kids slept until 7:40 & 8:00 am yesterday.  OMG.  Is this the dawn of a new era?  (I hope so!)

2) I am 60% over my cold.  I am dying to run and resume normal routine but wasn't quite ready this morning.  Hopefully tomorrow. 

3) Re: running - I think I am going to try to average 20 mi/week in August.  Right now it's more like 16-17 mi/week.  This should be doable.  This will begin my (slow) ramp up toward half-marathon training starting in October.

4) The weekend was pretty nice despite all of my whining yesterday.  We made it to a family brunch and then a birthday party yesterday.  Annabel watched Song of the Sea both days during C's nap.  

5) We are in the process of finally starting to finish our bedroom.  We have been living without a closet (yep!) and sleeping on a partially broken IKEA bed for the past 3 years, so it's time!  Has anyone tried a Casper mattress?  We are considering it.  I actually do NOT like super smushy foamy feeling beds so I am a little worried that I might not like it, but they do seem to have a great return policy.  

Re: closet, we are going to have some built-in wardrobe elements installed along one of the walls in our bedroom.  Hopefully coordinating this won't be as difficult as I am envisioning.

6) Aaaand C is up :)  

from the weekend

cousin play

. . . . aaaaand then he scraped his nose on the pavement.  

future bullet journalist

this morning (from the planner insta which is still making me happy!)

Sunday, July 17, 2016

7 am on Sunday

. . . and both kids are still asleep!  Some kind of miracle?  Anyway, I figured I would check in.  I had grand plans for a GTD-esque post on my current fave stationery tools (it's in draft), but then I came down with some viral #!(*&$ and when that happens, my brain always turns to mush.  I have one of those colds where you just want to lie on the couch with 94823 tissues and watch movies, but you know . . .

Yep, those days are in my past.  At least they are cute.

All that said, Josh has been very helpful and I even took a nap yesterday.  Today I woke up at 5 (nose clogged beyond belief, just so uncomfortable to lie down), medicated, and was actually rather productive clearing out the ol' inboxes & such.  So hopefully I will be able to sort of participate in life today -- yesterday I felt like I was just watching healthy people run around from the sidelines.

Let's see . . . what has been going on?  Friday night was movie night for A&C (now a ritual, and in this case necessary b/c Josh was still at work and I was dying).  Last night Josh and I watched Everybody Wants Some!! which I highly recommend especially if you like Richard Linklater movies (which I absolutely do).

Yesterday = a lot of couch time.  BUT I did receive some new pens (Stabilo 88s, THIRTY colors) in the mail, so there was that -- as shown in the C picture above, it was like Amazon Christmas due to some self-pity ordering on Thursday when I realized that I was sick, like, for real.  And we had takeout sushi which always feels incredibly luxurious for some reason.  Oh!  And Annabel went to sleep for the first time in months without Josh or me lying on her floor*.  We employed both a reading lamp (from the aforementioned Amazon delivery) and a sticker chart (crafted with my new pens, obviously).

so many colorrrrrrsssss

So yeah, I am getting over a gross summer cold, but I can't complain.  Especially because it is 7:19 AM and they are both still asleep?

OMG.  Here's to DayQuil, coffee, lotion-infused tissues and new pens!  Happy Sunday . . .

* Very very very bad habit.  We didn't mind doing it until her bedtime became so late that it was encroaching on mine.