wishes / hopes / thoughts: live from the inside of my head

1) i miss the mindy project.  i could really go for a new episode right now.  would settle for girls or modern family but what i really want is mindy.

2) i really really REALLY would like to be finished with fellowship now.  please.  just READY TO MOVE ON.

3) truly loving running as of late.  i'd really like to train hard again.  [hard-ish.]  and approach some of my previous PRs.  and i'm really excited now for my garmin to come!!

4) while josh loved his tie and day with annabel [i think!], i feel sort of guilty that i did not do anything special for my father for father's day.  i hope he knows that i think he is the best.

5) i am convinced that when my *new* planner arrives, my life will instantly improve.  even though it doesn't start until august.

6) feeling ambivalent about blogging lately.  when omdg mentioned giving up her blog, i thought, "huh.  maybe i should consider just letting mine go for a while."  honestly, i think it's because i'm feeling stagnant and anxious, and therefore everything i write is coming out that way -- and it's just making me more stagnant and anxious.  see #2.

7) i really really need to be studying more.

8) i loved having this weekend off with josh and annabel.  i admit i am completely jealous of couples for whom this is normal.

9) i feel like i need some kind of off-the-wall systematic endeavor to keep me occupied so i can stop feeling so -- well, see #6.  a reading list.  musical project.  yoga challenge.  i don't even know what, and it's not like i have time for a million extras!  and if i did . . . well, see #7.

10) contemplating taking july completely OFF from the internet.  as in:  no reading blogs.   no facebook.   no random surfing or gossip sites.  maybe no blogging, though i feel like it would be nice to document the unplugged experience . . .

few select weekend pix

[not our puppies!]

[[although a. thinks any pup is her pup]]

GPS

well, y'all . . .

finally bit the bullet and ordered one:  the garmin 210.  i wanted to shout out to dc rainmaker, a blogger with incredibly in depth GPS reviews [210].  very helpful!

in other news, our weekend has not resembled the one i planned at all, but it has still been good.

running down the clock / weekend happenings

i feel like i'm in a basketball game

those poor knights!

and one team is ahead by a jillion points and there are 45 seconds left on the clock.

i'm just not sure which team i'm on!

[i think i felt the same way at the end of my pregnancy . . . and the end of maternity leave, for that matter.  i just don't do endings well.]

but the ending will HAPPEN, nonetheless!

currently happening
1) a is entering a new phase:  she seems to have learned 'nooo' and 'mine' overnight.  she is still very sweet 90% of the time, but there have been some new challenges: this morning i think we both nearly had a meltdown . . . over a dirty diaper change.  she's certainly not at the age where you can reason with her yet, and the diaper changes are pretty non-negotioable, so . . . what to do?

i think it's developmental:  she suddenly has realized that her agenda may not always match mommy's, and is asserting herself!  i also think she is having a sleep transition (from 2 --> 1 nap most days) and may be more tired as a result.

what, mommy?

i am going to eat this shoelace and i will get mad if you try to stop me.

[any suggestions are welcome!]

2) fresh 20.  we're entering our 3rd week, and i'm still loving it:  i haven't made a bad recipe yet, i LOOOVE the break from menu planning, and there seems to be minimal waste.

this week's monday dinner:  citrus grilled chicken + jicama and corn salad

3) southern summer BBQ.  josh and i spent last night making honey cornbread muffins, black-eyed pea salad, and brunswick stew, and we're hosting a bunch of his coworkers today.  hopefully it will all turn out okay.

4) further thoughts on time.  yes - still thinking about it.  here's ana's take on the laura vanderkam article i wrote about earlier this week.  and here is what i sent josh [via email] on friday:

i just thought it would be interesting to intentionally plan out the time -- to enjoy the anticipation of it a little bit more, and also to make sure the precious weekend with BOTH OF US OFF [hasn't happened in foreverrrrr] doesn't get wasted.

aaaaand, we're already off schedule because annabel didn't sleep enough last night and was super tired by 9 am and needed a morning nap.  i'm still glad i have the blueprint though!

5) great run this AM.  i struggled on my interval run this week and have generally felt a little plodding [too much sugar / etc has not helped] this week.  but this morning i felt fantastic and enjoyed every second of this 8-miler in the morning durham sun.

most proud of mile 7 which was up a hill

[BUT still sure the #s are inflated.  always feel i need this disclaimer!]

okay, time to clean up a bit before a. is up!