Tuesday, July 26, 2016

Even More Updates (!)

1) No S.  A smart commenter pointed out that No S does not specify the number of meals.  An afternoon mini meal!  I love that idea.  To me, meal has the connotation of healthier food than does "snack".  I really do think the structure and basic premise of No S is pretty genius, so this is one modification (if it even counts as a modification?) that sounds like it would work beautifully for me.  Going to try it.

2) Mattress.  We ended up buying a Casper.  I have no thoughts on it yet as we have not set it up yet.  We just got our new bed today (bye, finnicky IKEA bed frame!) and are planning on letting our Casper "off-gas" (apparently this is a thing?) before using it.  But I'll let you know how it goes when we try it.  If it's hot, it's going back. 

3) Kids' eating habits.  Woah, several of you had pretty strong reactions to the link in my last post!  I feel like I owe it to you all to freely admit that we have not figured it all out either, but I do think Brittany's ideas are sound.  My kids LOVE sugar (would probably subsist on it alone if left to their own devices) and A in particular has become somewhat picky (insists her pizza be plain, refused to try the delicious Indian takeout we had this weekend, etc).  So yeah.  I don't think there are magic 'right way' rules either, but I believe in what she wrote.

4) Push up app.  I had a reader ask me about this - at the end of June I started with one of those "100 pushups" apps and am doing 3 pushup sessions per week.  Each session has 5 sets of pushups in escalating quantities; each set has 60-120 seconds rest in between.  When I started, session #1 was 5, 5, 6, 5, 3 = total 24.  Yesterday (session #12) I did 13, 14, 13, 11, 8 = total 59.  So it's definitely helping!  I however have had to progress more slowly than the app suggested (repeated Week 2 and also Week 3 workout 1).  My goal is to do 100!  And to like my arms more :)


5) Dinner routine.  Typically I have been eating late-ish most nights, usually after the kids are in bed.  Our nanny gives them dinner and I come home right after they have finished at around 6 pm.  I am really kind of sad that Josh's late schedule means that family dinners on most weeknights are not going to happen.  But maybe I should start eating with A&C.  I hate waiting until 9 to eat some nights -- I end up going to bed like 45 minutes later (thankfully I do not have reflux).  The worst = waiting and then eating alone anyway, or eating 39823 snacks while waiting for him to come home and then not being hungry for dinner anymore.  I assume that at a certain age, most parents eat with their children (unless there are sports practices or other evening activities).  When does that typically happen?

this was tonight.  Seriously.

Multiple hands in MOMMY's plate, which is the best plate obviously

(Side note = dinner was this strawberry chicken salad, served with farro.  SO GOOD!)

6) Shoes.  I got these two pairs at Cole Haan after much deliberation to replace the falling-apart (but comfy!) shoes I had worn to work every day for the past 3 years.  And now I have a blister.  Agh!  I am hoping that they just need some breaking in time?  

7) GTD/BUJO topics.  Oh man.  I have a post in the works on my fave tools (pens, paper, etc).  But I need more mental energy to write a post that does justice to my precious collection.  Somehow it feels easier to share via the Insta than writing out a full post, but I promise more will be coming.

Saturday, July 23, 2016


It's Saturday, and I am officially past the midpoint of my call week.  I am happy to report that Wednesday I did follow through on my determined plan to cope better with the stress.  Doing barre / watching a show / reading = much much preferable to prior tactics.  Need to remember this . . .

Remember how I mentioned "No S"?  I tried it.  I failed.  No S is an eating concept (I really loathe the word diet . . .) where you do avoid snacks, sweets, and seconds on all days that do not start with S (S days = Saturdays, Sundays, and Special days like birthdays and the like).  I think it's a great idea in theory.  But maybe not for me.

My issue is specifically the snacks!  I typically work out early (done by ~6:30 AM or so) after just coffee, have breakfast at ~7:00a, lunch at ~12:30 or 1p, and dinner at ~8:30p after A&C are in bed*.  I am fine all morning (honestly usually too busy/distracted to think about snacking in AM) but absolutely cannot last with a clear head or a modicum of energy when I attempt to last from ~1p - 8:30p.  So then every day I would "cheat", and that brought out a sort of failure mindset which led to worse choices than if I hadn't attempted the whole thing.

So I think we'll call No S a fail.  I'm not exactly what my goals were either.  I did come home from my CA trip with a few vanity lbs I wanted to get rid of, and I may have accomplished that, but I don't feel particularly fit right now (hot slow summer runs = not helping).  Usually cleaning up my eating habits helps with this pretty quickly, but I've been so inconsistent.  I think I am just going to concentrate on making generally healthy choices + ramping up mileage a tiny bit in Aug + getting in at least 2 strength workouts (barre) per week.  (Plus the pushup app, which is SO HARD but maybe I'm making slooooow progress.)

The truth is = I don't want to have to follow any sort of dietary rule long term.  But I also am vain and body-conscious (and I live in a world where mommy makeovers are spoken about like they are the norm).

The good news is that I genuinely enjoy exercise (especially running, but I like barre too!) and eating healthy food.  I don't have to follow rules, I just need to be mindful.  Need to try to remember that, but that can also be harder than it sounds.

Noemi's post reminded me that I haven't updated on this front in a while.  That's because there is not much to say!  I've been off FB since Feb.  I miss it maybe a tiny bit.  But I am 100% happier off of it. Too much comparison, too much mental clutter, and too many group threads sucking me in for mindless scrolling.  Perhaps my love of Instagram has increased as a result, but I don't find scrolling through my (fairly limited) regular feed or my plannercentric feed (love) nearly as toxic as FB's was.

Will I be back?  Maybe.  Definitely not until the election is over.  Speaking of which, I sort of can't even deal with this election.  I don't want to get political here, so I'll just leave it at that.

The kids slept at our nanny's last night as I'm on call today.  I got to sleep in and oh MAN, was it wonderful -- such a treat.  I feel so good today!!  And I had the morning to get things done, both work & non-work related.  Headed to pick them up soon, because it looks like there is no one for me to round on as of now.  Hooray for healthy kids!

Sooooo most of my Boden order got sent back :( Shirts too long, dresses not fitted enough, nothing looking as neat or together as it did in the catalogue.  I kept 2 cardigans, a cute belt, and a short sleeved striped shirt (my summer uniform plus I thought I could get away with wearing this one to work).  It appears that I am going to have to go to an actual store to refresh my work wardrobe.  (When did I stop going shopping in person!?)

✔︎ Brittany's tips for raising healthy eaters.  We follow all of these!  This is a couple weeks old but I flagged it as a great post so I wanted to share.

✔︎ Breee Berry's bullet journaling essentials.  If you are into planners / bullet journaling / stationery, you have to check out Breeeberry's stuff.  Seriously, I just LOOOVE her aesthetic.  (And have started using the Stabilo 88 pens at her recommendation and am now addicted.)

✔︎ LV's take on Satisficing.  I am absolutely a Satisficer.  I have dragged Josh into Satisficing too and honestly I think it has made our lives easier & better on several fronts.

✔︎ Speaking of shopping, this post from Un-Fancy was inspiring.  I actually do have bras I love (Natori = fits me really well!), but there are definitely things in my drawer that have been there for waaaaay too long if you know what I mean.  I loved how functional her collection is.

* I would love to change this, but Josh gets home late most nights.  If I eat with A&C then I'm not eating with him!  Unfortunately waiting sometimes doesn't work anyway because he'll come home after 9 and I end up eating by myself at 8:30 or so.  Hmmmm.  

Wednesday, July 20, 2016

Trying not to sing the on-call blues ...

On call, aaaaaand . . .feeling a little blah.  There is just something about being ON for the patients and ON for the family and presumably still ON a little bit for me (ie, being responsible about health, little life details, etc) that is just soooooooo draining.  Without call, I feel like I can really just zoom into my work brain ~8:30 - 5* -- but when all the sudden the edges bleed over -- even theoretically** -- well, I find it hard.  Very draining.  When I was a (childless) fellow, I would go home and lie on the couch and basically baby myself until the week was over.  Now?  I leave and shift into parenting mode the second I walk through the door.  And I'm never present on call evenings, as much as I hate to admit it.

Yesterday I self-soothed with double device time (including a horrifying amount of aimless scrolling) + crappy eating.  And it didn't really work - just woke up feeling bad about my lame night. 
Tonight I am going to try to do better - attempt a barre3 workout (home) after the kids are in bed, and then either hang out with Josh (if home) or read or watch another episode of Crazy Ex-Girlfriend WITHOUT another device in my hand.  Wish me luck . . .

(List-making also might be a stress relief activity for me!)

* Yes, those are my hours unless I'm on call (call = 20% of the time).  Yes, I know many doctors work more.  In my defense I think I get a lot done in that time frame.

** Even if I don't get called, I'm thinking about my inpatients and maybe even some of the imaginary calls I could get)